16th, April: Illness and Exams.
So there have yet again been no updates here... Sorry!
But for the past two weeks or so i`ve been quite ill, throwing up on a daily basis and being able to hardly move around without being extremely uncomfortable.
I`ve had to have a weekend off of work and a few days off of sixth form, i have been to the doctors but i`ll mention that later ^.^
So Sixth Form:I haven`t been to busy really, the majority of my work now is going towards my final piece and the exam that i actually have this week. I have been staying behind a lot more, till about 6, just to try and get more experimentation pieces done since everything else is now going towards the final thing.
Not everything has been finished yet for my final thing and it`s worrying me just a little bit now as we have 2 and a half days to put everything together and i don`t have it all prepared for those days... so now i need to panic a little bit!
Also, David has been offered an Interview at a place close by called Confetti studios. They mainly work with people in the performing arts, but it turns out that they also have an illustration course! I`m really proud of David for this and i seriously love his drawings. I am very proud of him and his work, he would be doing the same course as me, but unfortunately he didn`t get the correct grades. He was also contemplating doing the course that i`m on next year; but i think he should go for whatever he wants. But more specifically, Confetti does the right course for him, so maybe that`s the right place for him? I dunno, but as long as he thinks he`s chosen the right thing for him and that he`s happy; then i`m a happy Melonhead ^.^
But then the only problem with him going to Confetti studios, is that i won`t get to see him as much as i do now. So it`s going to be harder to spend time with him, even if i am only missing out an hour a day; it`s weird not even seeing him for that one hour. But whatever he decides, we`re gonna be able to make it work ^.^
So Illness wise:
I`ve been ill for almost two weeks now, i have been to the doctors to get it all checked out but i went for five things in total. I`ve been putting nearly everything off for a while now because when it comes to going to the doctors, i usually have to miss a few hours off of Sixth Form.
So for a while now everything has just been held off; but since i`ve been so sick for the past two weeks or so, i`ve gone and tried to get everything sorted out. One or two of the problems i won`t talk about because they`re a bit more personal to me.
1. Memory Loss.I can remember hardly anything nowadays and i`ve been writing notes and leaving them dotted around to remind myself to things.
apparently it`s down to the stress i`m putting on myself, and that i should keep on writing little notes and memos until i start to remember things a lot more easier. It was also recommended that i play some brain training games or do some regular exercise to clear my head.
2. Skin Problems.So the skin on my legs has always been bad, but just lately there`s a casual patch of it that`s gotten significantly worse and keeps on bleeding and just acting plain funny. So i`ve now got two creams; one is for all of the dry skin and the other is just for this random patch of dry skin that bleeds and blisters every now and then. (Not contagious and not a rash).
3. Breathing Difficulty.
So i`ve been having breathing difficulties on my left side, but now the pain is going up into my left shoulder. I`ve been told that this is probably because the blood vessels in my left shoulder are being crushed by the bag that i carry. Even though it is double strapped at all times and i even out the weight, so i don`t know how it`s being crushed in such a way that i cannot move my arm properly.
(The other two are a bit too personal to put up here).
But i was there for a while trying to explain what was going on and why i`d out everything off for so long. But to be honest with you, i`m starting to think that my health is a lot more than just "oh i`ll feel better soon." Even though i`ve struggled with mental health illnesses, this is just proving to me that there are a lot more problems rather than just that right now; and i think i need to pay attention to my body a lot more from now on.
The way that i`ve felt recently has been the worst i`ve been in about 3 years and i didn`t even want to move or get out of bed.
So i`ve had to have a few days off of Sixth Form and i`ve also had a weekend off of work, which i`ve gotten in trouble for... great! But on the topic of work, i`m thinking about leaving B&M. I`m not enjoying any of it, just going there makes me feel uncomfortable and i`m not enjoying being there at the moment and i really don`t think it`s for me right now.
If you also want to see my new blog update on my Art blog about a little therapy for when i was ill and some photography. (Hasn`t been uploaded yet though, probably take a few days as i`m at work.)
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